Monday, March 21, 2011

what can i really do?

Blessed are you who sit behind a desk for 8 hours & scan pictures of the the havoc in Japan. Blessed are you who drive home in your car that is not smashed up against debris. Blessed are you who go home to 4 walls, windows, a roof, air & heat. Blessed are you who lay in a comfy bed, thinking of what your day will look like tomorrow.


Wake up oh sleeper!

Mourn & wail for the Lost, for the broken. Arise & listen to your heart. Trust your heart. If it is beating & lamenting for the poor, then go! Do something now. You are a force for good! Even your smallest offering of money, time & service is of value.


You are of value.


Get out of your office. Get off the couch. Don't just cry, stuck in the sadness. Pray. Beg God to bind up the broken hearted. To heal the sick. To make beautiful things in His world, using His people.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Your Heart is at Stake Sister.

when did we think we could actually leave our heart OUT while we live IN relationships? when did we think we could actually.control.every.part.of.it... ? i haven't been a part of any realtionship where my heart has not been in it... with my parents... my sisters... my brother... my best girl friends... my mentor... those i mentor... my co-workers in ministry... my co-works in the secular setting... my boyfriend. i.can't.leave.my.heart.out.

and somewhere down the road i will get hurt, my chest will tighten up, my throat will be unable to speak words... just mumble tears. everyone you Love has the capacity to hurt you. everyone. the one you love most. and the one you are related to by blood. they.will.fail.and.hurt.your.heart. does that mean i choose to stay close to Apathy & live in the "i really don't care" mindset... Apathy invites me close on a cold day... and i want to accept the invitation... who really wants to get hurt & feel the pain of withdrawl or a lack of understanding? only a masochist. the whispered lie, speaks sweetly, telling me that Apathy really is the best way to go. i wont' have to feel anything. it's easier to walk alone. it's better to walk out on family drama. it's easier to not get involved with that student's messy home life.

your heart is at stake. you choose. Love... its many facets of joy & pain. or Apathy... & the cool embrace that fears nothing, cuz it only has self.